2.26.2005

'Ina!

January 27, 2005
Mom and ading (younger sibling in Ilocano) left for a month-long vacation in the Pihilippines because it's her Dad's frist death anniversary. She had her boyfriend and his mom to tag along with her on the said trip. Unfortunately for us, me and kuya, we can't leave Uncle Sam, we're still processing our papers. So we just drove them to the LAX and wished them bon voyage.

It was a 13-hour flight and she didn't bother to call us whe her plane landed on the Philippines to tell us they were safe and ask wether or not we came home safe the night before. Fine! I let it go, maybe she was just too busy.

A week passed, still no phone calls from her, not even a message in the answering machine was left. Her barkadas from Tokyo, NYC, and Texas were the ones who were calling all the time 'coz they will have a rendezvous in the Philippines and they were asking if I know my mom's contact number in the Philippines. I told them she brought my cellphone with her so it can be traded (it broke 6 months after it was purchased in the Philippines, it's guaranteed) and that the landline number in her parents' house was stored in that cellphone. She, mom, was supposed to be the one who should call us first because she'll be staying in Century Park Hotel before going to her parents' house. We don't have the means to call her at all. She only left us $200 as emergency money aside from my $5 daily allowance. I had a flu but I didn't dare use it to go to the doctor because they charge uninsured people way lot than those who are under HMO.

One week became three, still no phone call from her. Dad's raving, "What kind of a mother is your mom?" he said. Kuya's anger's fueled with that question he answered, "She left us 15 years ago, no phone calls during the first three years. She can do it again and it's only been 3 weeks."

A day after that, her boyfriend gave us a ring. He was already here and asked how are we doing. I told him we're fine, sort of, and that his girlfriend didn't bother to call us at all. He connected us to our mother through a three-way party conference. I wanted to be calm but I just burst out when she told me her illogical excuses.
  • I tried to call you but I can't access.
  • I don't know how to place a call.
  • If I was there and you're here, I know how to call you.
My retaliation. Mom, how old are you and how old do you think are we? You were checked-in in a 5-star hotel, surely it has an IDD and NDD, because when kuya and I stowed away the other year, we checked-in in a 2-star hotel and it has both, all you have to do is read or ask the front desk. And your siblings for sure has a cellphone especially the politician, pfffft! Your younger sister was the one who accompany me in the PLDT booth to call you the other year, didn't she tell you? Kung talagang gusto, maraming paraan. Kung talagang ayaw, maraming dahilan!

I wanted to yell at her that she's a pathetic bitch but she cut the line.

2.08.2005

Boyfriend


I already have a boyfriend. It's been four months since we became on. He's such a nice guy. He's mature and caring and very understanding. He's ten years older than me and is already working. I think he's already financially stable. He's also a Filipino, his family came from Iloilo, but he grew up in Chicago.

We had sex after a month of our relationship, I can barely walk that day, that first time. I already met his parents, I spent my Christmas vacation at their home in Illinois. I was shocked when he invited me and was so nervous in meeting his folks, but they were nice to me too. I'll be spending my Spring break at his apartment, he already made some arrangements, my two-way ticket's been bought.

Mommy and the rest of my family didn't know he's my boyfriend, all they know's he's a boy friend. Me befriending a guy a decade older than I am isn't a big deal to them, not yet at least. You see, he's more experienced than I do and..stuff.

I'll be graduating next year and I'm planning to look for a job in Chicago and live with him. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you right away, I hope you understand that it's very hard on my part. Please don't hate me for being gay, I was born this way, Ate.

Love,
Chris