uhm..yeah.. I'm a hair metal band fanatic.. oobvious ba..? =P
Something to Say
Yesterday I had it all worked out to a 'T'
But now something's wrong between you and me
I was wrong, so wrong
To think that I would stay
Seasons come and seasons go
And today is another day
I wanna say now's the time
To go our separate ways
I don't know I might be wrong
Could we find the strength to say
That our love, our love has seen some better days
And who's to say if I had the chance
That I'd make the choice to say
If you ever had something that you wanted to say
You better start talking before I go away
I wish that I could say I've been feeling okay
That I'll be bringing on the better days
But I wouldn't feel right
Knowing I was lying to you
Am I wasting all my time, will we try to make a mend
I try to read between the lines
But all I see is the end
If you ever had something that you wanted to say
You better start talking before I go away
I wish that I could say I've been feeling okay
That I'll be bringing on the better days
But I wouldn't feel right knowing I was lying
Knowing I was lying to you.
Honestly
I stand before you accused of many crimes
But I want to believe that love can still survive
You don't have to say it, I don't have to read your mind
To know that emptiness has finally arrived
How was I to know right from wrong
Words were hardly spoken, so where did I go wrong
Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me
Looking into my eyes honestly
Words have more meaning, if they're said at certain times
I need you now so I can feel alive
How would you know if you won't give me some time
To see if everything could work you'll be mine
I'll be lost forever or someday I may find
The words that I've been searching for or just some peace of mind
Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me
Looking into my eyes honestly
All the nights I sit and wonder there must be more life
I'm sure that days and years go by while
I am living with, living with a lonely feeling
Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me
Looking into my eyes honestly
10.18.2006
What People Think of Your Mouth
People see you as both demanding and irresistible. You are often the center of attention - and that's how you like it. You are up for anything and very energetic. People sometimes propose wild ideas to you. And who knows? Maybe you'll take them up on it. You are known to be a little freaky!
Ingredients: 1.75 L Jagermeister 1 L Johnnie Walker's Jekyll and Hyde Soul foods (fried pork chops, fried chicken, potato salad, and coleslaw) 1 queen-sized bed in a dim-lighted room
Preparation First, take a very quick shower, 10 minutes tops, to freshen you up after a long tiring day's work. Use a shower gel that comes with a body lotion and a body spray, which scent compliments and accentuates your body's natural uhm..aroma. Then, towel your hair but don't dry it, just leave it damp. Don't put any make-up on either, appear as fresh-looking as you can. Even if you're not used to wearing anything on when you sleep, you have to wear something in a slumber party, and since there are members from the opposite sex who are invited, better wear something that will not catch their attention, meaning something that might turn the wrong switches on. I suggest wearing a pair of jog suit or pyjamas, depends on the weather and/or season; however, under some circumstances, you can still stir that thing on them males, like you may have assets so visible even in these kind of apparel.
Working on with the Tricks Ask someone who's also invited to the party to carpool with you. This way you can save gas and mileage of your own car. Give him a peck when he comes to your house to pick you up as a sign of greeting and thanks. In his car, ask him not to turn the a/c on, you wanted him to save gas too, and just let the night air blow your hair to your face along with the whiff of your scent to his nose. Upon arriving to your destination, go inside your host/ess house first and sit on the couch or love seat, he'll surely follow you and sit right next to you, 'coz by this time he's already addicted to your fragrance. Act as if you can't feel his eyes roaming all-over your body. Drink your Jag shots chased by Jekyll and Hyde shots as you're supposed to. Eat the soul foods in your plate that your host/ess has given you. Always stand up and go to the restroom if you feel like going even if you're already feeling the buzz of what you're drinking and make sure to pass by the electric fan frequently, or better yet, sit in front of it. Since you're tired and buzzed, you'll feel like the world's spinning around you, so ask your host/ess where his/her bedroom is, tell him/her you want to see his/her bed. When you get there, lay down and sleep lightly. After some time you'll feel the presence of another person. You know it's him; Although your mind's still awake, just pretend you're sleeping. Pretend until your pretentions become reality. He'll be lying down beside you by then.
Reaching the End While you were sleeping, kiss him hard until you taste blood. Go on top of him, sit astride him, and tell him, "I'm gonna rape you tonight, bitch." Slap him across his face and follow it up with a backhand. Covering his mouth with your hand, bite his earlobe. Squeeze his chest. Nip his neck. Slap him again and again until you pass out on top of him. He'll stand up, lay you on your stomach, pull your legs down and leave it hanging on the side of the bed, strip your pants and undies off and exact his revenge. He'll just finish what you've started. Extinguishing the fire you've ignited he'll squirt on your buttocks with his loads. He's still a gentleman and will wipe it off your skin with a paper towel and put your clothes back on to its place. He'll also make sure you're lying on the same spot you're lying on when he entered the room so that nobody will know what happened that night except him, for tomorrow when you wake up, you'll simply think of it as a dream. A wet dream..
"If I'd ever have to choose between my ovaries and my breasts, I'd surely give up my ovaries and just take some hormones in tablets.."
Mebbeh someone up there's punishing me right now because of that statement. I just noticed few days ago that the mole that surfaced on my right areolae is not the usual brwon or black one, it's maroon. How many maroon moles have you seen in your lifetime? Mine's just this one and it's on my body. It's still small and I haven't noticed if it's growing but I can feel it's one of those protruding ones. Aside from this one that stands out, I noticed a couple more moles on my mammary gland, one's half an inch from the maroon one, and the other is on my left nipple and I can only see it when my nipple's distended. It wouldn't hurt to go see a doctor, I know, but I can't help myself not to be afraid of the outcome. Maybe I'm just being paranoid after hearing that my friend has cysts in her pelvic area, and I'm having some psychological reactions on the mole too because I'm still having some menstrual pain and/ or cramps minus the menses. I already stopped popping OCP's so why the hell do I feel like my boobies are a ton each? Well, that only started to feel that way lately.. So why is it aching again?
When will my paranoia gonna end?
7.13.2006
You are Grounded
You are one of the fortunate few people who is perfectly content with themselves. Though maybe not overly confident, you don't struggle with any significant insecurities and are certainly not shy. You aren't emotional, and though this makes you seem uncaring sometimes, anyone who gets to know you a little better knows there is a whole load of emotion just beneath the surface, you just control it very well.
The downside of being so balanced is you don't readily throw yourself off balance, like falling in love, for instance. You lack the capacity to be creative in a truly original sense and need someone else to bring flair and individuality into your life, or else run the risk of having your life become mundane and boring.
As you are so steadfast and capable, you can be a rock for a less secure person. You love being supportive and helping and could give yourself forever, as long as you got a little back. It doesn't take much to keep you happy, and when you do fall in love you are wholeheartedly there for your partner through all the highs and lows life throws at you.
Most compatible with: The Dreamer
The Dreamer is the polar opposite to you. Overly emotional, unstable and unbalanced, they are far from the secure person you are, but they have an artistic side that you will never have. They can see beauty and romance in everything, things you would take no notice of. Though you will often struggle to see eye to eye with the Dreamer, the intrigue and mystery that surrounds them and the colour they bring to your life will keep you holding onto them forever. After all, opposites attract, neh?
Least compatible with: The Submissive
The Submissive is only interested in serving their partner, and as you are an independent person who likes doing things for themselves and has no need for someone to depend on, a relationship with the Submissive is likely to irritate you to no end.
Your song is: This is the Last Time, Keane
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http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i171/TheBreak-upKids/Quizilla/loverswithguns2.jpg You kill As A Result of Passion. Being a very passsionate being, you kill on an impluse and probably regret it because it was someone near and dear to you.
Personality: Firey, Passionate, Emotional Weapon: Whatever was closest and most capable at the time. Expression/Action: Sad eyes, or a guilty depressed look down Most Common Feeling: Regret
Mesai, you're an Elephant in the wild world of love.
You're a favorite amongst any herd, aren't you, my little Elephant? Like your animal alter ego, you're probably more devoted, family-oriented, and loyal than your average creature roaming the jungle of love. For you, mating is probably more about expressing your feelings than just satisfying sexual urges. Overall, you're great with people, and you always seem to have a story or comment that leaves the group feeling better about things.
You're cuter than Dumbo, and smarter too, which is why hanging out with you is always a good time. With your charm, not to mention that sexy trunk, it's no wonder there are plenty of fans lining up to tango with you. Despite all the attention, however, you're probably not one to charge ahead into a romantic encounter without thinking first. You prefer to be friends first before letting things heat up. For you, romance is a seduction of the mind followed closely by your devoted heart. It's that authenticity that makes you so irresistible.
Which Naruto Character is your personality most like? (You dont have to watch\know Naruto to take this.)
You are Kakashi, a cheerful person and have a wrapped sense of humor. You are kind of a pervert. You usually put others safety before yours. Even if you had a bad past, you manage to put it all behind. You like reading romance or dirty books. You may look quite ditsy, but hey, appearance can be deceptive. You are a really loyal and caring friend.Best paired with someone that is crazy, strict or someone that is a loner. Take this quiz!
Kalabaw lang daw ang tumatanda.. Ngunit bakit ganun, para akong sinikmuraan at tinadyakan nang aking mapagtantong ako ay tumatanda na?
Trip ko lang magmarathon ng Prince of Tennis sana, kaso ay mas inuna kong panoorin ang latest episode ng Naruto na aking na-download mula sa Dattebayo. Ang katapusan ng filler story tungkol sa Noroimusha ng Bird Country ay mayroong introduction ni Pakkun, ang aso ni Hatake Kakashi na team leader ng grupo nila Uzumaki Naruto, Uichiha Sasuke, at Haruno Sakura. Wala akong balak magsayang ng blog space at panahon para lamang ikuwento ang story ng Naruto so far, kaya balik tayo sa introduction ni Pakkun. Ang epsiode 166 kase ang first episode for the year 2006 at ang 2006 sa Chinese calendar ay Year of the Dog, thus, nagkaroon ng brief intro si Pakkun na isang pug. Ang closest cousin ko sa paternal side ay ipinanganak noong taon ng aso, mil nueve sientos otsenta y dos, at sa darating na Oktubre ay magbe-beinte y cuatro na siya. Dalampu't apat na taon.. Isang taon na lang quarter life na.. Ilang taon lang ang tanda sa'ken ng pinsan kong ito kaya nga naging close kame dahil inde kame nagkakalayo ng edad, kaya kung magka-quarter life na siya next year, ilang taon na lamang ay ako naman ang susunod..
Not that I don't wanna get old at mayroon akong Peter Pan syndrome.. Nagkataon lang na na-stuck ang utak ko into thinking na 15 pa rin lang ako noong college days ko, at 18 mula nang umapak ako sa lupa ng mga Amerikano. Ewan ko kung bahket.. Marahil ay dahil I haven't lived my teenage years to the fullest kaya gusto kong maging ganun muna ang age ko for quite some time.. Dose pa lang kase ako eh nagbabantay na ako ng tindahan ng Tita ko, though half-boring half-enjoyable naman, inde 'yun 'yung talagang gawain ng isang 12 years old.. Tapos kahet pa meh ganun ng responsabilidad na ibinabalikat sa'ken eh meh yaya pa rin ako hanggang mag-college ako or rather personal assistant na since dalaga na ako.. And 2 of my former PA's became my drinking buddies pa nga at isinasama kong mag-clubbing.
Anyhoo.. Meron daw ng tinatawag na "quarter-life crisis".. I dunno what it consists of and I don't fear it.. Napapansin ko lang na merong mga changes sa'ken as time passes by.. Una, matagal ko ng alam at inamin sa sarili kong horny ako and I admit (to others) I masturbate, though lately mas nagiging malibog ako and I feel like my mind and body are ready for sex. Pangalawa, nadi-depress ako lately especially pag nakikita ko sa Friendster ang mga classmates, schoolmates, batchmates, etc. ko na merong graduation pic na naka-post. Meron na silang tapos, meron na silang na-accomplish.. Ako? Eto, stuck sa lupa ni Uncle Sam kung saan ang pag-aaral ng kolehiyo ay mas mahirap kesa sa Pinas. Kung sa Pinas nagbebenta ng livestock ang mga magulang para mapag-aral ang kanilang mga anak, dito ka-kailanganin mong i-refinance every year or term depende sa kung magkano ang halaga ng hinuhulugan mong bahay para lamang mapag-aral mo ang iyong anak sa kolehiyo na isang napalaking gastusin sapagkat tumataas lalo ang value ng utang mo kada magre-refi ka. At ang huli, lagi kong iniisip at/ o kaya'y pinoproblema kung magkanong pera ang ipadadala ko sa Pinas para maipagpatuloy ang negosyo ng tiyahin ko, maipambili ng lupaing gusto ko/namin ni kuya, at pampagamot sa lola't tita ko..
Sa tuwinang naiisip ko 'yung dalawang huli kong binanggit, nagke-crave/naglalaway akong manigarilyo nang sunud-sunod, though I'm not a smoker.. Sign ba iyon ng quarte-life crisis..Ang pagiging smoker? =P