8.29.2006

Scattered Thoughts of a Paranoid

"If I'd ever have to choose between my ovaries and my breasts, I'd surely give up my ovaries and just take some hormones in tablets.."

Mebbeh someone up there's punishing me right now because of that statement. I just noticed few days ago that the mole that surfaced on my right areolae is not the usual brwon or black one, it's maroon. How many maroon moles have you seen in your lifetime? Mine's just this one and it's on my body. It's still small and I haven't noticed if it's growing but I can feel it's one of those protruding ones. Aside from this one that stands out, I noticed a couple more moles on my mammary gland, one's half an inch from the maroon one, and the other is on my left nipple and I can only see it when my nipple's distended. It wouldn't hurt to go see a doctor, I know, but I can't help myself not to be afraid of the outcome. Maybe I'm just being paranoid after hearing that my friend has cysts in her pelvic area, and I'm having some psychological reactions on the mole too because I'm still having some menstrual pain and/ or cramps minus the menses. I already stopped popping OCP's so why the hell do I feel like my boobies are a ton each? Well, that only started to feel that way lately.. So why is it aching again?

When will my paranoia gonna end?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

that is what i like to call "intellectual infection". there was this annoying friend of mine who caught a serious skin irritation. he went to school wearing this stupid red long-sleeved shirt to cover the swelling. he slapped me on the face and said "puta ka, mahahawa ka na nyan". and in that moment, i started scratching my face. get it? btw, nice blog. very informative about the universal female. haha.