The Lost Pot Lid

I was browsing my friendster account last night when I noticed my cousin’s wedding video was posted on his wife’s account. Actually, we were classmates back in our senior year, and yeah, they were high school sweethearts basically. They broke up for a while when we were in college, then got back together obviously since they’re now married. As I was watching said video, I felt something kicked my gut. I didn’t know why I felt that way, and I couldn’t even pin-point if the feeling’s envy or something else. I always felt like my throat’s clogging/choking everytime I see young couples stare lovingly at each other. Then, for no apparent reason, I remembered the joke my HS freshman adviser used to tell us whenever we asked her why she never got married. “I met my soulmate, the only problem was I was facing the altar and he was not.” Well, of course I personally knew who broke her heart, he’s my father’s elder brother, duh.. A cousin of mine once said that when you met that certain person whom you’d feel like you wanna spend the rest of your life with, you’d know, but what if, like my HS teacher, you felt that way for this person but unfortunately s/he just doesn’t? Will they still be considered as your fated destiny, as ill as it was? And if they happened to just pass your life by, who will cover you in your lifetime?