I can't breathe.. Those were my thoughts as I got overwhelmed by emotions. Cry, Sai, cry.. I commanded myself, but not a single tear fell.

My roller-coaster ride had just ended, I should have felt unburdened. The sigh I would have let out was that of relief, but it was not. I had to inhale deeply just so I could breathe. I felt my lungs constricting, I felt like drowning.

I felt too numb to cry. Ironically, I felt the stabbing pain in my chest, the piercing in my heart.