Coreen

I got intrigued by my name since I've a Gaelic name but found out that my given name was already of Irish origin meaning maiden. So I've searched for it on the www, and what have I got apart from the aforementioned?

1. end of hills (Aboriginal Australian)
2. filled heart (French)
3. hummingbird (English)
4. maiden (Greek)
5. spear (unknown origin)

But, according to a good friend, Alex Enigma Machine, the description from Urban Dic is very apt. LOL. (click the entry's title for the Urban Dic description)

Friends With Benefits Prospectus

Aftershock

How can former bestfriends turned into boyfriend-girlfriend go back to being bestfriends?

I know I shouldn't have agreed with him to cross the line, even if I never wanted to be just his best friend since day one. I miss talking to him about everything and nothing. I wanted to tell him about this interesting person I have recently met online. I wanted him to tell me how happy he is with his amazing. I wanted him to be there for me. I wanted him to once again listen to my random ramblings as I did to him. Just the thought of us falling apart like this pains me. I wanted him to stay in my life forever. I would happily just take whatever he can offer me.

I Secrete Something Wet and Sticky!!

Your results:
You are Spider-Man

Spider-Man 90% Hulk 70% Green Lantern 70% Supergirl 55% Wonder Woman 55% Superman 50% Catwoman 50% Iron Man 50% Batman 40% Robin 40% The Flash 40%

You are intelligent, witty, a bit geeky and have great power and responsibility.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...

Boy Bastos =P

A first-grade teacher, was having trouble with one of her students.

The teacher asked the boy, "what is your problem?"

The boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in
the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the
third-grade too!"

The teacher had enough. She took the boy to the Principal's office.

While the boy waited at the reception of the office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told the teacher he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave and so she agreed.

The boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.

Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"

Boy: "9".

Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"

Boy: "36".

And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know.
The principal looks at the teacher and tells her, "I think Boy can go to the third-grade. "

The teacher says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions, can I ask him ?"
The principal and Boy both agree.

The teacher asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?

Boy, after a moment "Legs."

Teacher: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"

Boy: "Pockets."

Teacher: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?

Boy: Coconut

Teacher: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky?

The Principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, but the boy was taking charge.

Boy: Bubblegum

Teacher: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs?

The Principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer..

Boy: Shake hands

Teacher: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?

Boy: Yep.

Teacher: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.

Boy: Tent

Teacher: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first.

The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Vodka peg.

Boy: Wedding Ring

Teacher: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.

Boy: Nose

Teacher: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.

Boy: Arrow

Teacher: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?

Boy: Firetruck

Teach: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if you don't get it you have to use your hand.

Boy: Fork

Teacher: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?

Boy: Surname

Teacher: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?

Boy: Heart

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this boy to Stanford University , I got the last ten questions wrong myself!"

Tuhog

Nakilala ko si Alex sa isang chatroom..Then one day, we agreed to set a meeting. Sa chat pa lang, meh spark na kami, sexually. So ayun, he went to my place. Nagkataon naman na andun yung younger sister ko, bulong pa nga sa'kin ni sis he looks ghetto raw sa suot niya, parang hindi galing ng Thames gaya ng pakilala ko, so we hang out sa room ko. Pagpasok namin doon, he asked me kung ano ang gagawin namin which I threw back at him. Sabi niya, alam ko na raw kung ano, sabi ko naman, sige, maghuhubad na'ko. So ayun, we fucked..ay mali pala..I fucked him.. sa room ko, sa bed ko.. And then after that I hurried to my driving lessons.

After three days, we had a rendezvous sa mall and then niyaya niya ako sa apartment niya. I thought solo namin 'yung unit, so sumama ako, hindi pala. His two roommates were there, sina Kevin and Miko. Umakyat sina Alex and Kevin sa taas after ng introductions, si Alex, magbibihis, si Kevin, tutulungan si Alex magbihis.. Sa sala, inakbayan ako ni Miko and 'yung isang kamay niya is nasa crotch ko while interrogating me kung nag-sex na ba kami ni Alex. Eh siyempre, he was touching me sensually kaya medyo na-arouse ako, tindig balahibo ko and told him straightforwardly na, oo, nag-sex na nga kami ni Alex. Then he asked me to give him a blowjob, eh dahil nga medyo libog na'ko kaya napapayag niya ako. After ni Miko mag-cum inoral din niya ako kaso dumating bigla si Kevin at niyaya akong kumain sa kusina, well, medyo gutom na rin ako kaya sumama ako, hindi naman sapat 'yung titi at tamod para mabusog ka sa isang meal noh?

Sa kitchen, Kevin started seducing me with his queries, kung nakailang boyfriends na ba ako, kung may boyfreind ako ngayon, if I love to fuck and be fucked, which is oo ang sagot ko. Tinanong pa niya ako kung marunong ako tumingin ng virgin sa hindi na, na siyempre alam ko sa una pa lang. Then he asked me kung ano tingin ko sa kanya, top or bottom or versatile. I answered right --- top (nangangantot lang). After ng Q&A, he cornered me and fucked me, missionary naman, unlike nung keh Alex na doggy, bottom (nagpapakantot lang) kasi siya eh, okay lang naman sa'kin kasi bukod sa matitikman ko na siya eh super libog rin naman ako sa ginawang pag-oral sa'kin ni Miko. Ako, versatile ako, nangangantot at nagpapakantot.

rough-draft of a dream

"I thought you have no plans on getting married?" he asked with eyes full of contempt.

She looked him straight in the eye and replied, "I don't. It just happened." 

Reposting is not Plagiarising

I choose...
by Mariel G. Calalo

I choose to love you in my silence,
for in silence I feel no rejection.

I choose to love you in my loneliness,
for in loneliness, no one owns you but me.

I choose to love you from afar,
for having you near would never let my heart let you go without shedding a tear.

I choose to love you despite of what people say about you,
for I know you in your entirety.

I choose to love you even on days when you are absolutely unlovable,
for I love the good and the wicked in you.

I choose to love you even if those wrinkles start to show and those muscles sag,
for I know that the years have just shown me how you've grown in beauty and bloom.

I choose to love you as a friend,
for friendship is a far stronger bond than romance and passion.

I choose to love you for all sorts of reasons.

I choose to love the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you smile, the way you complain.

I choose to love the quirky little things about you, your verbal mishaps,
and on days when you'd make me cry, I'd still love you just the same.

I choose to love you despite of your childish ways,
for I believe one day,
someday
you'll come through shining.

I choose to love you even if your heart breaks,
cries for somebody else, for my love I give without expecting anything in return.

I choose to love you, silently, in solitude, from afar...
even if it means being lost in the limbo.

I choose to love you today, tomorrow... forever, for once you start loving a person, you never stop loving them. Maybe a little differently or a little less but you never, never stop loving them.

Abbee may be right.. Happiness is something far-fetched for me..

Have you ever felt so empty?

"Abandon all hope ye who enters here," in bold neon sign I see..

Surrender..

I can't breathe.. Those were my thoughts as I got overwhelmed by emotions. Cry, Sai, cry.. I commanded myself, but not a single tear fell.

My roller-coaster ride had just ended, I should have felt unburdened. The sigh I would have let out was that of relief, but it was not. I had to inhale deeply just so I could breathe. I felt my lungs constricting, I felt like drowning.

I felt too numb to cry. Ironically, I felt the stabbing pain in my chest, the piercing in my heart.

Everything You Want

I have loved this song for almost a decade now and when I learned how the songwriter was able to come up with the song, I grew more attached to it as I have felt the same way he felt with my beau. It hurts to be in that kind of situation. It was like having your heart shattered into pieces and each broken part splinters another. What pained me even more was when he told me I cannot afford to help him. It was like a being slapped on the face..

Matt Scannell: "I was basically in love with this beautifully complex and crazy person who could see everything around her except for the thing that could actually help her. And I just thought of a sort of tormented, glasses-half-empty person who was in pain about a bunch of things that had happened to her in her life, and always wound up looking to the wrong places to find solace and to find help. And then when that was over, she would just be emptier than she was before. And I could just see her kind of sinking. And it was written out of frustration, it was written out of sadness, and from my perspective, a sense of wishing that she would turn to me, and to realize that I wanted to help her in ways that maybe she couldn't see as it being what she really needed. And she never did. So in the last chorus is really that chance that I had to say, 'Hey, look – enough. I love you. I can help you, but I don't mean anything to you at all.' I've always tried to steer clear of nailing the meaning of the song too far on the head. But if you're asking me directly, that's really where it came from. Yeah."

Regrets.. - Parte Una -

Sai: "I'm sorry.."
Bhadz: "Why?" (Bakit?)
Sai: "..for what happened in the past.." (dun sa nangyare..)
Bhadz: "For when you left me or for when you didn't come back?" (Alin dun, yung iniwan mo ako o yung hindi mo ako binalikan?)



The movie The Labyrinth taught us to be careful of what we wish for, for it may come true..


Flashback. The year was 2003, I was riding a jeepney on my way to Gastambide. My friend Dana (not her real name) told me that her boyfriend believes in signs and that she was his wish come true. Now, all of you knew I am not the romantic type of person, although I sometimes tend to get cheesy and mushy. Anyways, I tried, out of the blue, to wish for someone to come into my life and make me feel special and loved. Yes, I was thinking about that inside the jeepney.

My wish came true when I met Leon (not his real name) shortly thereafter. He's a friend of Dana's boyfriend, Greg (not his real name) and my type of guy: tall and kinda skinny, like those bishounens in the mangas.. He was my wish come true..or so I thought..

I went to our province to open a small business with my elder brother and another friend; there I met Bhadz (again, not his real name). Bhadz is the son of my friend's parents' tenant. Queenie (also not her real name) introduced us one day when I went to her house. I forgot the reason why I went to see her, but then again, she always calls for me even if there wasn't any. Queenie's like a big sister to both me and my elder brother, so I didn't really mind being called for just because of a whim. Bhadz is a good looking guy. He turns every girl's head every time he passes by or they pass him by, but I'm no every girl, so I never turned my head to him.

I was comfortable being friends with him since I wasn't attracted to him and I assumed he wasn't to me either. I had self-esteem issues, and I was never wooed until late 2001. I was a late bloomer, and I even thought I was a lesbian, but that's another story. In a short period of time, we became the best of friends. I told him about Leon and my attraction to him, my sort of meshed-up future plans, my years spent in the province, my college days. He in turn told me about his ex-domestic partner and his son, how she broke his heart and trust, how his stepmom hates him, his nomadic life, his college days (we're from the same university, who would've thought?). We told each others' stories by the boulevard, while chugging bottles of beer, and inhaling cancer sticks. Little did I know, he had fallen for me..

idle hands are the devil's play things.. LOL!

I Hate Love..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. And I must admit that no matter how hard I am pushing you away I just can't find any reason to not to love you at all. I hate that I love you so." - Neil Gaiman

twenty-ten, bloggin' again..

it has been a while since i blogged and i dunno where to start.. chronicling my life in more than 140 characters per topic/subject will be quite a task..

i'm thinking of asking my online friends for a subject to nitpick on.. i'm so clueless lately.. maybe it's the sugar, maybe the hormones, or perhaps the pheromones and neurotransmitters..

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Neal Caffrey

I have watched USA Network's White Collar's pilot episode thrice, and I still cannot get enough of Neal Caffrey.. He's the very first non-geek TV series character I ever fancied on.. His character is so adorable and very charming! He has the smoothness and slickness of Thomas Crowne (Pierce Brosnan, I have not seen the original one with Steve McQueen) and John Robie (Cary Grant's character in Alfred Hitchcock's To Catch A Thief).