Fear of the Known

It was mid-September when my cellphone rang in the middle of dawn. I was too tired from school and work I don't wanna answer it, but I thought, what if it's an emergency, especially it's from my aunt. My Tita Tammy. She was the one who raised us, my elder brother and I. I answered it, and was surprised not to hear my aunt's voice on the other line. It was my cousin's wife, Ate Sandra, she's the one holding my aunt's cellphone.


"Len, dinara namon si Tita sa ospital. Sabi san duktor stroke daw."
(Len, we rushed tita to the hospital. The doctor said she had a stroke)


I was suddenly awake, however, I felt my body went numb as well. For some minutes I wasn't able to utter something, then finally, "Kumusta na si tita? I-confine nyo muna sa hospital para ma-obserbahan. Pag kaya na ni tita bumiyahe, pa-brain CT scan nyo si tita either sa Cebu or Manila." (How's she? Have her confined in the hospital to be observed, and then if she can travel, bring her to Cebu or Manila for a CT scan.)


Two weeks later my tita had her CT scan in one of Cebu's hospitals. She had three brain tumors, a product of her cancer metastasis, and the specialist said she only has three or so months to live. Ironically, October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month, Tita Tammy was a breast cancer survivor for thirteen years until three masses were spotted in her liver ultrasound last 2006.


I became rash. I tendered my two weeks' notice to my employer, dropped my class, and borrowed money from my mum to buy a plane ticket home. By the 24th of the month I was in the Philippines, I was able to talk to her over the phone. She just moaned and groaned, I felt a stabbing pain in my heart. Was her motor skills now affected by the cancer cells? By the 25th, I was in the hospital, on my aunt's bedside greeting her a happy birthday.


She just spoke to me that morning when I arrived. She told me I was so chubby, in an almost inaudible way, before she went to sleep. There wasn't any recognition on her face. It's as if she looked at me, but didn't see me. Afternoon came and her sisters and sister-in-law, along with their daughters and daughters-in-law visited her to give her a birthday bash in the hospital. She didn't wake up from her slumber, she didn't even stir, eventhough it's quite noisy, she hates noise, in her hospital room because of her chatting visitors. We called for the doctor, she had fallen into comatose.


She wasn't able to eat her chocolate cake. She loves chocolate.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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Pangangarir ng Blog

I haven't really blogged for a while now, I haven't read my friends' blogs lately either.. 'Di ko na nakakarir ang mag-blog, although I have a lot of things going on in my mind. I keep on promising myself that I will try to find time and write, or rather type, whatever nonsense I have in mind just to ease up whatever it is that's bothering me, but alas, I keep on stalling myself. I'd write a rough draft of my entry in my mind, but then I'd just end up doing nothing about it.

The Lost Pot Lid

I was browsing my friendster account last night when I noticed my cousin’s wedding video was posted on his wife’s account. Actually, we were classmates back in our senior year, and yeah, they were high school sweethearts basically. They broke up for a while when we were in college, then got back together obviously since they’re now married. As I was watching said video, I felt something kicked my gut. I didn’t know why I felt that way, and I couldn’t even pin-point if the feeling’s envy or something else. I always felt like my throat’s clogging/choking everytime I see young couples stare lovingly at each other. Then, for no apparent reason, I remembered the joke my HS freshman adviser used to tell us whenever we asked her why she never got married. “I met my soulmate, the only problem was I was facing the altar and he was not.” Well, of course I personally knew who broke her heart, he’s my father’s elder brother, duh.. A cousin of mine once said that when you met that certain person whom you’d feel like you wanna spend the rest of your life with, you’d know, but what if, like my HS teacher, you felt that way for this person but unfortunately s/he just doesn’t? Will they still be considered as your fated destiny, as ill as it was? And if they happened to just pass your life by, who will cover you in your lifetime?

Doomsday in 5.5

It has been foretold that the earth's apocalypse will take place on the 21st of December 2012 B.C.E.

Yes, I watch NatGeo, History, and Discovery channels..

*shrieks "the end is near!" like bloody murder*

After the Sabbatical

It's been six months since I was officially diagnosed as diabetic. It wasn't really a news, both my parents have it, my paternal grandad died of diabetic coma, most of my relatives have it as well. Even if it was an expected outcome from the blood tests I did, I still went through the denial stage.. no erase that..I'm still going through the denial stage. I know, it's been months already, but I still can't accept the truth that I've been sick all these years and we never noticed it, that my diabetes mellitus is not an adult onset one, but the juvenile kind.


After the diagnosis, I started on my oral treatment, one for my sugar, and another for my cholesterol. I fancied calling my cholesterol medicine my boob-shrinker, I lost 3 cup-sizes according to the VS associate who measured me last semi-annual sale. I now poke needles on my fingertips four times a day, before every meal and before bedtime. I do blood testing on a monthly basis to see if there were any progress in my sugar level. The past months were so hard and difficult for me, especially when my blood sugar fluctuates from 61 in the morning then it will rise up to 284 by noon. There were times when I can't get up from my bed because of numbness, there were times when I just mumble my words. It's been only half a year but my medication dosage already changed four times. My lifestyle didn't change though. With work and school, how can I have the time to do some exercise.


These past few months were too stressful for me that my migraine worsen. At first I thought it was just the side effects of either my sugar decreaser or boob-shrinker. My headaches now would go on for weeks, unlike before that I can just pop two 325mg of tylenol, take a cold shower, and sleep through the night and voila, headache's gone, boo yah! So my MD suggested it's maybe high time that I go to a radiology office for a brain cat scan. Well, there was no harm in doing what your MD advised you, right? So off I went to the radiology clinic after HMO gave me a go signal to do so. There they found a 10mm tumor in my pituitary gland.


Great!! The tumor just explained my headaches and my irregular menstrual cycle. I know, I was advised a couple of times to see a doctor with regards to that stupid irregular menstrual cycle of mine, I heed it, gosh!! I took it after I got my health insurance. But I guess I was diagnosed late, huh..? It's been a very trying year for me.. Imagine, I was just diagnosed of having a juvenile diabetes mellitus and will start doing insulin shots this month, then I had a brain tumor for a bonus.


My medical insurance will expire next month, and I don't know what to do afterwards.. Well, hindi pa naman ako mamamatay eh, hiling ko kase manalo lang ang Cleveland Cavaliers, puede na'kong mamaalam sa mundong ibabaw, kaso natalo sila last month sa San Antonio Spurs. 'Yun nga lang, wala namang makaka-miss sa'kin mawala man ako.. (Well, I won't die, not yet anyways, since I made a bet with the devil that if the Cleveland Cavaliers won, I could say goodbye to this world, but they lost to San Antonio Spurs last month. Besides, nobody will miss me when I'm gone..)

Why Don't You and I?

Since the moment I spotted you
Walking 'round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feelin' like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

But every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out, everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together an' take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other, fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in

When's this fever gonna break ?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's alright
Bouncin' round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

Every time I try to talk to you
Get tongue-tied
Turns out, everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together an' take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I get together, fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in

Slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna end
About the same time you walk by
And I say oh here we go again, oh

Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out, everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together an' take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I get together, fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in

So I'll say why don't you and I get together take and on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I get together, fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in

So I`ll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again

Yagit Na Meh Chaket

yeah, I have a flu

because a spider bit me

and I had my hair cut,

what the fuck's up with that?!

Harem Scarem Fanatic

uhm..yeah.. I'm a hair metal band fanatic.. oobvious ba..? =P

Something to Say

Yesterday I had it all worked out to a 'T'

But now something's wrong between you and me

I was wrong, so wrong

To think that I would stay

Seasons come and seasons go

And today is another day

I wanna say now's the time

To go our separate ways

I don't know I might be wrong

Could we find the strength to say

That our love, our love has seen some better days

And who's to say if I had the chance

That I'd make the choice to say

If you ever had something that you wanted to say

You better start talking before I go away

I wish that I could say I've been feeling okay

That I'll be bringing on the better days

But I wouldn't feel right

Knowing I was lying to you

Am I wasting all my time, will we try to make a mend

I try to read between the lines

But all I see is the end

If you ever had something that you wanted to say

You better start talking before I go away

I wish that I could say I've been feeling okay

That I'll be bringing on the better days

But I wouldn't feel right knowing I was lying

Knowing I was lying to you.

Honestly

I stand before you accused of many crimes

But I want to believe that love can still survive

You don't have to say it, I don't have to read your mind

To know that emptiness has finally arrived

How was I to know right from wrong

Words were hardly spoken, so where did I go wrong

Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me

Looking into my eyes honestly

Words have more meaning, if they're said at certain times

I need you now so I can feel alive

How would you know if you won't give me some time

To see if everything could work you'll be mine

I'll be lost forever or someday I may find

The words that I've been searching for or just some peace of mind

Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me

Looking into my eyes honestly

All the nights I sit and wonder there must be more life

I'm sure that days and years go by while

I am living with, living with a lonely feeling

Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me

Looking into my eyes honestly

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you as both demanding and irresistible. You are often the center of attention - and that's how you like it. You are up for anything and very energetic. People sometimes propose wild ideas to you. And who knows? Maybe you'll take them up on it. You are known to be a little freaky!

What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

tabachuchi

after 3 months of being a bumpire, I became fat again!! pffft!! ano magagawa ko kung tabain ako?! hamfotaj!!

Recipe for Rape

Ingredients:
1.75 L Jagermeister
1 L Johnnie Walker's Jekyll and Hyde
Soul foods (fried pork chops, fried chicken, potato salad, and coleslaw)
1 queen-sized bed in a dim-lighted room

Preparation
First, take a very quick shower, 10 minutes tops, to freshen you up after a long tiring day's work. Use a shower gel that comes with a body lotion and a body spray, which scent compliments and accentuates your body's natural uhm..aroma. Then, towel your hair but don't dry it, just leave it damp. Don't put any make-up on either, appear as fresh-looking as you can. Even if you're not used to wearing anything on when you sleep, you have to wear something in a slumber party, and since there are members from the opposite sex who are invited, better wear something that will not catch their attention, meaning something that might turn the wrong switches on. I suggest wearing a pair of jog suit or pyjamas, depends on the weather and/or season; however, under some circumstances, you can still stir that thing on them males, like you may have assets so visible even in these kind of apparel.

Working on with the Tricks
Ask someone who's also invited to the party to carpool with you. This way you can save gas and mileage of your own car. Give him a peck when he comes to your house to pick you up as a sign of greeting and thanks. In his car, ask him not to turn the a/c on, you wanted him to save gas too, and just let the night air blow your hair to your face along with the whiff of your scent to his nose. Upon arriving to your destination, go inside your host/ess house first and sit on the couch or love seat, he'll surely follow you and sit right next to you, 'coz by this time he's already addicted to your fragrance. Act as if you can't feel his eyes roaming all-over your body. Drink your Jag shots chased by Jekyll and Hyde shots as you're supposed to. Eat the soul foods in your plate that your host/ess has given you. Always stand up and go to the restroom if you feel like going even if you're already feeling the buzz of what you're drinking and make sure to pass by the electric fan frequently, or better yet, sit in front of it. Since you're tired and buzzed, you'll feel like the world's spinning around you, so ask your host/ess where his/her bedroom is, tell him/her you want to see his/her bed. When you get there, lay down and sleep lightly. After some time you'll feel the presence of another person. You know it's him; Although your mind's still awake, just pretend you're sleeping. Pretend until your pretentions become reality. He'll be lying down beside you by then.

Reaching the End
While you were sleeping, kiss him hard until you taste blood. Go on top of him, sit astride him, and tell him, "I'm gonna rape you tonight, bitch." Slap him across his face and follow it up with a backhand. Covering his mouth with your hand, bite his earlobe. Squeeze his chest. Nip his neck. Slap him again and again until you pass out on top of him. He'll stand up, lay you on your stomach, pull your legs down and leave it hanging on the side of the bed, strip your pants and undies off and exact his revenge. He'll just finish what you've started. Extinguishing the fire you've ignited he'll squirt on your buttocks with his loads. He's still a gentleman and will wipe it off your skin with a paper towel and put your clothes back on to its place. He'll also make sure you're lying on the same spot you're lying on when he entered the room so that nobody will know what happened that night except him, for tomorrow when you wake up, you'll simply think of it as a dream. A wet dream..

Scattered Thoughts of a Paranoid

"If I'd ever have to choose between my ovaries and my breasts, I'd surely give up my ovaries and just take some hormones in tablets.."

Mebbeh someone up there's punishing me right now because of that statement. I just noticed few days ago that the mole that surfaced on my right areolae is not the usual brwon or black one, it's maroon. How many maroon moles have you seen in your lifetime? Mine's just this one and it's on my body. It's still small and I haven't noticed if it's growing but I can feel it's one of those protruding ones. Aside from this one that stands out, I noticed a couple more moles on my mammary gland, one's half an inch from the maroon one, and the other is on my left nipple and I can only see it when my nipple's distended. It wouldn't hurt to go see a doctor, I know, but I can't help myself not to be afraid of the outcome. Maybe I'm just being paranoid after hearing that my friend has cysts in her pelvic area, and I'm having some psychological reactions on the mole too because I'm still having some menstrual pain and/ or cramps minus the menses. I already stopped popping OCP's so why the hell do I feel like my boobies are a ton each? Well, that only started to feel that way lately.. So why is it aching again?

When will my paranoia gonna end?

You are Grounded

You are one of the fortunate few people who is perfectly content with themselves. Though maybe not overly confident, you don't struggle with any significant insecurities and are certainly not shy. You aren't emotional, and though this makes you seem uncaring sometimes, anyone who gets to know you a little better knows there is a whole load of emotion just beneath the surface, you just control it very well.

The downside of being so balanced is you don't readily throw yourself off balance, like falling in love, for instance. You lack the capacity to be creative in a truly original sense and need someone else to bring flair and individuality into your life, or else run the risk of having your life become mundane and boring.

As you are so steadfast and capable, you can be a rock for a less secure person. You love being supportive and helping and could give yourself forever, as long as you got a little back. It doesn't take much to keep you happy, and when you do fall in love you are wholeheartedly there for your partner through all the highs and lows life throws at you.

Most compatible with: The Dreamer

The Dreamer is the polar opposite to you. Overly emotional, unstable and unbalanced, they are far from the secure person you are, but they have an artistic side that you will never have. They can see beauty and romance in everything, things you would take no notice of. Though you will often struggle to see eye to eye with the Dreamer, the intrigue and mystery that surrounds them and the colour they bring to your life will keep you holding onto them forever. After all, opposites attract, neh?

Least compatible with: The Submissive

The Submissive is only interested in serving their partner, and as you are an independent person who likes doing things for themselves and has no need for someone to depend on, a relationship with the Submissive is likely to irritate you to no end.

Your song is: This is the Last Time, Keane



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You kill As A Result of Passion.
Being a very passsionate being, you kill on an impluse and probably regret it because it was someone near and dear to you.

Personality: Firey, Passionate, Emotional
Weapon: Whatever was closest and most capable at the time.
Expression/Action: Sad eyes, or a guilty depressed look down
Most Common Feeling: Regret

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Mesai, you're an Elephant in the wild world of love.

You're a favorite amongst any herd, aren't you, my little Elephant? Like your animal alter ego, you're probably more devoted, family-oriented, and loyal than your average creature roaming the jungle of love. For you, mating is probably more about expressing your feelings than just satisfying sexual urges. Overall, you're great with people, and you always seem to have a story or comment that leaves the group feeling better about things.

You're cuter than Dumbo, and smarter too, which is why hanging out with you is always a good time. With your charm, not to mention that sexy trunk, it's no wonder there are plenty of fans lining up to tango with you. Despite all the attention, however, you're probably not one to charge ahead into a romantic encounter without thinking first. You prefer to be friends first before letting things heat up. For you, romance is a seduction of the mind followed closely by your devoted heart. It's that authenticity that makes you so irresistible.

Hatake Kakashi

Which Naruto Character is your personality most like? (You dont have to watch\know Naruto to take this.)

You are Kakashi, a cheerful person and have a wrapped sense of humor. You are kind of a pervert. You usually put others safety before yours. Even if you had a bad past, you manage to put it all behind. You like reading romance or dirty books. You may look quite ditsy, but hey, appearance can be deceptive. You are a really loyal and caring friend.Best paired with someone that is crazy, strict or someone that is a loner.
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Eto na Ako Ngayon.. *sigh*

Arf, arf!!

Kalabaw lang daw ang tumatanda.. Ngunit bakit ganun, para akong sinikmuraan at tinadyakan nang aking mapagtantong ako ay tumatanda na?

Trip ko lang magmarathon ng Prince of Tennis sana, kaso ay mas inuna kong panoorin ang latest episode ng Naruto na aking na-download mula sa Dattebayo. Ang katapusan ng filler story tungkol sa Noroimusha ng Bird Country ay mayroong introduction ni Pakkun, ang aso ni Hatake Kakashi na team leader ng grupo nila Uzumaki Naruto, Uichiha Sasuke, at Haruno Sakura. Wala akong balak magsayang ng blog space at panahon para lamang ikuwento ang story ng Naruto so far, kaya balik tayo sa introduction ni Pakkun. Ang epsiode 166 kase ang first episode for the year 2006 at ang 2006 sa Chinese calendar ay Year of the Dog, thus, nagkaroon ng brief intro si Pakkun na isang pug. Ang closest cousin ko sa paternal side ay ipinanganak noong taon ng aso, mil nueve sientos otsenta y dos, at sa darating na Oktubre ay magbe-beinte y cuatro na siya. Dalampu't apat na taon.. Isang taon na lang quarter life na.. Ilang taon lang ang tanda sa'ken ng pinsan kong ito kaya nga naging close kame dahil inde kame nagkakalayo ng edad, kaya kung magka-quarter life na siya next year, ilang taon na lamang ay ako naman ang susunod..

Not that I don't wanna get old at mayroon akong Peter Pan syndrome.. Nagkataon lang na na-stuck ang utak ko into thinking na 15 pa rin lang ako noong college days ko, at 18 mula nang umapak ako sa lupa ng mga Amerikano. Ewan ko kung bahket.. Marahil ay dahil I haven't lived my teenage years to the fullest kaya gusto kong maging ganun muna ang age ko for quite some time.. Dose pa lang kase ako eh nagbabantay na ako ng tindahan ng Tita ko, though half-boring half-enjoyable naman, inde 'yun 'yung talagang gawain ng isang 12 years old.. Tapos kahet pa meh ganun ng responsabilidad na ibinabalikat sa'ken eh meh yaya pa rin ako hanggang mag-college ako or rather personal assistant na since dalaga na ako.. And 2 of my former PA's became my drinking buddies pa nga at isinasama kong mag-clubbing.

Anyhoo.. Meron daw ng tinatawag na "quarter-life crisis".. I dunno what it consists of and I don't fear it.. Napapansin ko lang na merong mga changes sa'ken as time passes by.. Una, matagal ko ng alam at inamin sa sarili kong horny ako and I admit (to others) I masturbate, though lately mas nagiging malibog ako and I feel like my mind and body are ready for sex. Pangalawa, nadi-depress ako lately especially pag nakikita ko sa Friendster ang mga classmates, schoolmates, batchmates, etc. ko na merong graduation pic na naka-post. Meron na silang tapos, meron na silang na-accomplish.. Ako? Eto, stuck sa lupa ni Uncle Sam kung saan ang pag-aaral ng kolehiyo ay mas mahirap kesa sa Pinas. Kung sa Pinas nagbebenta ng livestock ang mga magulang para mapag-aral ang kanilang mga anak, dito ka-kailanganin mong i-refinance every year or term depende sa kung magkano ang halaga ng hinuhulugan mong bahay para lamang mapag-aral mo ang iyong anak sa kolehiyo na isang napalaking gastusin sapagkat tumataas lalo ang value ng utang mo kada magre-refi ka. At ang huli, lagi kong iniisip at/ o kaya'y pinoproblema kung magkanong pera ang ipadadala ko sa Pinas para maipagpatuloy ang negosyo ng tiyahin ko, maipambili ng lupaing gusto ko/namin ni kuya, at pampagamot sa lola't tita ko..

Sa tuwinang naiisip ko 'yung dalawang huli kong binanggit, nagke-crave/naglalaway akong manigarilyo nang sunud-sunod, though I'm not a smoker.. Sign ba iyon ng quarte-life crisis..Ang pagiging smoker? =P

Kiss

Four or so years ago, I was asked by a lot of boy friends, horny and curious alike, what is the key to a woman's sexual submission? I laughed, I wanted to ask them "why?" but just kept the question in my mind and just answered them with another question, "why ask me? I'm not the right person to ask, 'coz first, I'm younger than all of you, and second, I haven't been intimate to anyone. All I have are theories yet to be proven by myself."

As I was drifting to slumber last night, I caught a glimpse of one of the Closer's scene, when Jude Law kissed Julia Roberts, and in my semi-asleep consciousness I thought, "that's my theory yet to be proven..the key.."

In my theory, if a guy could kiss a la Jude Law, Julian McMahon (Nip/Tuck and Charmed, Dr. Doom of Fantastic 4), and/or Enrique Iglesias, he can make any gurl totally submissive and do his every bidding. Why? Because a kiss done the proper way at the right moment can turn all the switches in a woman's physiology and psychology on..

A kiss full of passion and hunger.. A mixture of respect and desire.. A kiss so goddamnfuckingly good 'tis orgasmic..

As Tom Jones pointed out in his song, Kiss, "You don't have to be beautiful to turn me on.." True. Proof? Though I don't find Tom Cruise handsome, the general public do.. And even if I do, even if he's The Tom Cruise, I still am not turned on by him the way I feel whenever I watch Enrique Iglesias in his Hero music video. He doesn't make me want to be with him in his love or kissing scenes. He can't make me gasp and hunger like I'm the one he's kissing unlike Cole while frenching Phoebe.

A 10-Minute Ride

"I heard you're planning to spend the holidays back home now that you already have your greencard?" My mum's uncle asked me on our way to my workplace. Uncle Roger volunteered to drop me off that day since he's not interested in watching Kampanerang Kuba unlike his wife and my mum. I just confirmed what my mum told him, he went on talking and I heard the best advice given to me, "Enjoy your vacation, then, 'coz by the time you got back here, you'll have to focus on your studies and part-time job, whatever it may be."

If only he knew.. I won't be really enjoying myself in the Philippines.. I'll hafta manage my aunt's store while she's having her much-needed vacation and check-up. I won't be a part of the "Empe Boiz" anymore, though salimpusa naman lang talaga ako.. All I have is 2 days at most, if ever matuloy man ako this month.. Kahet kase I'm working my flat ass off, eh part-timer lang naman ako tsaka minimum lang rate ko, kaya short pa rin ako ng pamasahe.. Sa hangin kase kame nagkapirmahan ni kuya ng kontrata na if ever man kapusin ako eh iso-shoulder n'ya..

"Pagdating mo dun, mag-scout ka na ng mapapangasawa mo. Dapat Nursing grad at masipag, 'yung ipagta-trabaho ka para mabuhay kayo not the other way around. Tapos, i-petition mo na makarating dito, pero kelangan you love each other. Tignan mo kame ng Auntie mo. Mas maganda pa rin kase pag Pilipino rin mapapangasawa mo eh."

"Aray ko, bata pa po ako," was my reply but wasn't voiced out, late na'ko for work eh..